seem to hear alot of weird things abt relationships lately..i mean really weird..and sometimes hearin (im not tryin to bring the guys down), but it seems to portray guys of today are just..i duno..how to decribe-too much?hearing stuff like things guys can do-i admit it scary for any gal i think:married or not married..maybe e guys here would prob would wana differ-sorry..but im not in the mood to listen..so if u wana say something-dun bother.this is just a friendly gal thing and thoughts. somehow i jus get the feeling guys of today sometimes jus take their galfriends for granted-do u?things they do-thinking it may be for the best or wadever ur reasons maybe-not knowing tt's wad hurts the most.girls DO NOT think the guys' way...some gals wana be reliant,some independent.is there a generations gap or is it just me?in the past,guys complain saying gals to dependent on them-pressure,cant take it.yet now,guys complain saying gals too independent-feeling unwanted?!so wad?haha..looking for all perfect gal in the world-dream on..try lookin for someone perfect in ur eyes.another thing i realised,guys also sometimes say,we gals think too much feel so much and all..but when guys offer a break up..tell u e reasons they give..haha..its really unbelievable..BIGGY time..gals, i guess we're more emotional n all..for a guy they love, the extra miles they'll go..its also a jaw dropper-(though to some guys means nothing on the contrary,to the gals its does-means SOMETHING),they expect the same from their guy too..am i right to say tt?i duno..do feel tt way..with a couple of galfriends..security is one the upmost impt factor for most gals i think..somehow we're given with this 6th sense thingy(sounds like the movie..but anyway)we can tell when things are not goin right.honestly,i hate it.used to think its cool..now i think its totally uncool to a certain extend.things we need to make ourselves feel secure and etc..guys like dun quite understand..not exactly knowing the imptance of it?!which is kinda sad..yet guys with their friends they are suddenly rejuvenated.haha..maybe its one of the times when people say: men from mars;women from venus?jus me?hehz..but i duno..but these are just thoughts..well..half of it..goin to sleep..haiz..sick..emotionally and physically..hate it.not to mention the company proj drivin me nuts..

im jus wondering why and why and why abt alot of things..being gal having to do these and all always failing in certain aspects of my life..today luncho at pris farewell was kinda emo..thought abt certain things to do with church..she asked a couple of questions which i felt i could relate..today is jus bad.didnt do my work or rather,proj..den i cant simply understand why-if i dun wana go one of my aunt's hse=im avoidin my ex?!i feel that i forgave him for the past, but yes,it jus its still hard.but if i forgave him,does it mean tt i've to meet up with him or have a meal with him or still go to my aunts place jus to prove that im over him?!i didnt mind goin to my aunt's place-but all i wanted was to have time for myself,for me-doin things i enjoy.but sadly,this is the perception tt pple have.if u're my brain,den tell me if not,i think i know the ans better den anyone.almost met with 2 car accidents today..thank God for my dad..but if i was alone..think i wouldnt have care cause i lost all feelings already..think i'll jus be-"gone".up to now..everything else seem distant..right to this very sec.