..little miss piggy..
well..ahhh..guess u guys wondering the name? cause i had to help my company thus..having to work at challenger @ Funan?and..well..kinda embarrassing but this is the name given to me by the other promoters there?haiz..they say im cute?!oh wad the heck..i have always been right?!whahaha..im so cute n adorable!!everybody loves me!so much say like i have a guy whom i think came up with such a lame pick up line.."have i met u before somewhere?"and for the entire rest of the day,he still goes.."u look awfully familiar!nw where's tt place..is in sch?!cant be..im 28 yrs old.."-such a lamer.

well,the last few days i was feeling really tired and all..jus so wanted to sleep!so in the holiday mood..so much so that i couldn't get out of bed yest morning even though dearie called me up..i went back to sleep till 1030?got up watch tv - Samurai X(mmmmyyyy hhhheeeerrrooo!!!Kenshin! =p)okie..enough of that cheap thrill..ha!super slack i tell ya!den made some breakfast..went to do some ironin of my clothes,washed my fishy tank.oh..talking abt fish..did i ever mention tt my fish which i kinda detest,actually nw worth a few thousand dollars?!!!it came out of papers tt day..one of those lucky fishes- parrot fish?!to think i hated it n..to think abt it, i still do...after my fighter fish died,my dear dad saw me like depressed abt it n got me this fish!oh..maybe i should learn to treasure it..cause i jus strike rich!?whahaha..anyway..im back in the office after lunch..have to go do my auditing nw!whahaha..ciao..

gettin' rich.gettin' rich.gettin' rich.gettin' rich.
..im crazy..

to all tt has been chasin me to update...a million apologies..
..winter..
im back in the office once again..called back to do auditing?!super boring and sianz..esp when im in the holiday mood!not to mention i so wana watch my fav hero!Kenshin..wah..(i know he's just a character in e story) right nw,im like freezing here!the air con is colder cause outside rained jus nw..so like my nails turned purple?haiz..weak..prop need to start training up in sports again..talk abt me slacking for years..ha!done with my presentation..so kinda relieved..glad things went slightly better in the office and sch..so nw hoping for the best!
-out to lunch...i'll be back,12pm-
-back from lunch,2pm-
..in the meanwhile..
last nite i felt kinda irritated,demoralized,upset and all. somehow im not sure if im being intoxicated or something but like kinda agree with my dad tt grandad is very lazy?hmmm..my family all have no idea how to motivate him though we still have the patience. yet, the thought of tryin to help him seems so hopeless cause he is very stubborn?!oh well..i duno..guess on sunday i was telling karen tt i feel like an idiot in my family?made a prayer with shirley tt if God prolonged his life,i'll make the commitment tt i'll bring him to church in hope that he accept God. suddenly with the days tt goes by, granddad attitute getting from back to worst..it seems..rather impossible...
HOW?

-afraid.traumatised-
well..i slept at 2am last night cause there were some commotion in my granny's house in which i landed up at alexandra hospital.hmmm.. basically i was talkin to my grandpa,we were jus walkin to the other end of the house where the swing is..den he wanted to sit-tired?it pained my heart to see him like tt..he was like my dad who took care of me since young!everytime we chatted,he would smile at me like a small little child,eyes sparkling,..he is in second childhood.so yah..mum let him sit on the organ chair for fear that he has difficulty to get up later(if he sat on a chair too low).but he was sliding off den i told him ok..why not sit another place..said ok..but den,this is where it all started. i was lifting him up..but he juz felt so weak,couldn't stand, felt his weight on my right hand..deep down,i was saying,"Please dun let it be what i think it is.."den dad n 3 other uncles had to carry him to the bed..within like split seconds,his speech slurred,his eyes keep rolling up..he was breaking into cold sweat,perspirations formed on his forehead and amrs.another aunty massaging him also scared that his muscles got cramped n all..his legs and arms were so cold..my godma kept talkin to him cause he was semi- conscious.grandpa seem to be in alot of difficulty cause i think he wanted to go to the toliet but he was juz so weak to go..so we jus let him pass motion on the bed,including..well..you know..while i was seeing everything that happened,i was tearing cause i was afraid.shocked. the chill jus kep runnin up and down my spine..every single part of me was jus tense.we called the ambulance..paramedics came..told them wad happened..said he had black faeces..was not good..bought him down to the lift..my younger couz all had sch today..so had to go home.
at the lift..heard from my uncle tt grandpa was afraid..that he didnt wana let the lift door close..tried his best to stop the door from closing..even for me when i heard..it hurted so much more to hear it..everything seem bad..thank god had my cell and dearie to pray..i was so nervous and yah..
thanks to our merciful God when everything blew over..he was stablized,brought to his ward.when i thought it..the timing was perfect cause normally at ard 10plus we'll all return home.but yet we jus there..the whole family.friends who called me to comfort me..and dearie..yah..being here for me.i guess this is the toughest time that im goin thru cause like yah..my relationship with God is not exactly good..when i think i could stand up..there is always a force pushing me down all over again.during service i cried cause at the moment,i felt every single burden and pressure was taken away.

ok..tt's all for nw..i have to go visit my grandpa..ciao