all for love
all for love a father gave
for only hope could make a way
all for love the heavens cried,
for love was crucified

oh many times have i broken Your heart?
but still You forgive, if only i ask
and how many times have You heard me pray
draw near to me

everything i need is You
my beginning, my wonder
everything i need is You

let me sing all for love
i will join in the angel song
ever holy is the Lord
King og Glory, Kind of all

All for love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
though they know not what they do
let the Cross draw man to You

..thank You, Jesus..

feeling so sad now. i guess i dashed my hopes on graduating this september. i didnt know what happened on friday but it did. i hate myself for it. i really do from the bottom of my heart. i wish i was better at it. i couldnt do the paper. people said it was easy. i thought so too. but i couldnt recall anything. i didnt even exactly answer the question to the point. not graduating. feeling so sad. truly am.

now, i just have to accept what i am feeling. save me, Lord. im so tired. i just wanted to collapse. would there be any grace? i guess i dun deserve it either. i know i should be trusting You. it just happened.

teach me to trust. teach me to be stronger than what i am. i really feel like crying now. hear me, o Lord. i cant sleep.

-cyclists, the upcoming hazards on the road in Singapore-
im not about to come in here to condemn all road cyclists who finds its a joy to ride on the roads in singapore. though i cant exactly comprehen that excitement and etc, this is i must say out of safety of cyclists and drivers of vehicles. im not sure if its only in the area i lived in, or suddenly there's a increase of road cyclists in Singapore. fact: they are becoming more and more irritating on the roads. where's the sensiblity and consideration? our country total sq area is only abt 693km.

firstly, we are not european countries, where cycling is still a mode of transport ard most areas. we do not have enough land to go ard or our infrastructure of the roads do not allow the easing of traffic. if you cyclists need a wake up call, pls note how often our poor government is always trying to upgrade the roads to ease jams. there, cyclists just suddenly and conveniently all appear and we are back to square one. yet, its either in the morning or night where these buggers are out. i cant deny when i often thought my dad was quick to judge people doing such a sport- i mean, they are just doing what they like as a hobby.

i witnessed this whole gang of cyclists hogging up one whole lane one of the night, when traffic is pretty heavy, buses having to move along behind them cause they cant overtake as cars from the other lanes are jus swooshing past. worst for my area, as they made partition on the roads, dividing the roads to buses or turning and straight ahead kind. the leader of the pack, not even a single safety precautionary measure taken. the overall gang: you cant see them unless you're like really close enough to see this small pathetic brake light, differentiating the lights infront from street lamps, buses and etc. this is the kind if they met with an accident, they sure do not exactly deserve much sympathy. maybe they should like consider only riding only during the ungodly hours so as not to obstruct traffic; least the accident rates in Singapore will not increase. less injuries, less lives loss. seem logical so far? i think so! so save the crap on human rights and blah blah, stand from another pt of view, and yes, cyclists are becoming hazards on singapore roads. mind you, i felt that only as a passenger, so which means i do not have to focus the roads like a driver, but i do have more time to note and observe brainless cyclists without safety gear. reflection: what has education taught you on a considerate person? nothing. ask for sympathy if met with an accident? almost zero. (unless u met a drunk driver, kinda sway if you asked me)

one example: yesterday while in a bus, apart from the driver taking the road limit seriously, a cyslist holding up a bus with a load of passengers waiting anxiously to go home or destinations! hey, maybe as a cyclist you're home and out again to do your own thing, but least, be considerate to people who spend eyones travelling home just to do what they want.

secondly, i took a different stand pt view: this time as a driver. some cyclists think they that its ok to ride on the left hand. but i beg to differ. often we have to be "nice" as driver to give way to them. but, when we wanna make a turn, we have to wait for the cyclist to either cycle his or her way thru first or turn- when by the time they pass thru, probably 2 cars of the turning lane gets to go thru. hey! cyclists out there! we're not stopping you from cycling, but be considerate!

-if riding at night, least you could do its get yourself "lighted" up, so you're visible. if u decide to ride in the evening or morning, try to cycle on the pavement so as not to obstruct traffic or choose the least traffic areas. its simple logic.

thirdly, i must say i do not compliment singaporean road cyclists. there are some who cycle really well, they all in gear, with the aero-dynamic suit and stuff. but, they are some, who wear all that, but goodness, they cant even cycle well! wobbly, surving left and right, typically dangerous esp merging lanes! i experience this when i was on probation plate and now that im certified a more or less experience driver on the roads. honestly, no matter how good a driver is, if the cyclist sucks (still like a show off but totally sucky at cycling- still choosing a busy road), cyclists are the ones who might be the ones on the list to instill fear or irritation on the roads, apart from inconsiderate taxi drivers.

general information: if you, as cyclists didnt know, you are almost as good as a motorcyclists, without an engine. which means, you are seriously very slow. the governement did impose a rule on motorcycles in the past, to reduce the numbers on the motorcycles on the roads to ease pollution and traffic. because of cyclists at times; goods being transorted, workers and etc, are often met with unforseen consequences like delay or accidents, worst, fatal- causing uneccessary guiltiness to people. how can you live with that? i cant, definitely. im not that "gung-ho" as some.

too bad the election is over and my area is a walk-over. i guess until the government recongise what a hazard you guys are, try to lay down during heavy traffic times or at least, put a brake light, head light and wear something so you're VISIBLE. like a traffic police reflective suit, that should help. until the government should decide to start off a lane for cycling (like in europe or aussie), pls go away or ride on pavements. they are everywhere, next to the roads if you feel you need to be close to the roads for the feel. maybe the governements should set a particular cycling route at one area(that cars do not have to use that often) for all cyclist so as to ease traffic.

i jus got back from malacca. boy, the food. as usual, typically good. my cousin andrew nevers fails to be the good host of bringing us to eat tons of variety. bbq seafood with mini nasi lemak; steamboat- beef and vegetables(i know it sounds disgusting but seriously it is damn good). so much for studying. haha.

finally sold off my levi jeans. sigh. i so need to shop. but no cash- have you ever feel that frustration?? im sure you did at one point. so reduce the explanation, you know what i mean and feel.

2 more weeks to exams. not to mention, im missing someone quite badly. but back to hit the books and a boring life. cheers.

tuesday.

exercise. argh, i soooooo need to move my butt of the seat and start running and get back into shape! think im accumlating fats on the wrong places. also, to get my health back in order. everything seem to be goin wrong. shucks.

studying. why is this semester kinda harder than my previous? is it because im always distracted or have i lost my momentum for studying due to my long-overhaul of projects?

friends. boy, am i glad i was in pri 6D. yes john, i am quite surprise you found my blog? thanks for calling me allamanda cause only so far, you're the only person who calls me that for the record, in which i remember you named yourself, "chulalongkong". haha =) these are the kind of friends who never fails to brighten the dark times. so to john and ange: HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!

(beware. these are symptoms of deciding between studying and procasination.)