yay! today's friday.

kinda feel this big sense of relief after reviewing with my boss. oh well. really tiring spending one whole day chasing buyers.

at least lunch time was great. had team lunch. then... we ate 'awfully chocolate'!!!! ohhhhh!! i love the cake and the ice cream. one of the best so far... comfort food was awesome.

going for movie later. yay. watching "Fracture".

now, im leaving office!!! ciao

and so its Wednesday. last post? also Wed.

im beginning to like wednesdays in office cause its kinda of an "off" day for me. I do not have reports to hand up. Probably have more time to focus on other issues which needed attention. so i am glad that yeps, im starting to appreciate Wednesdays alot.

ytd i was sick again. but it due to lack of sleep. last few nights for the past week, i was having like a slight insomia. every morning at 5plus, i would wake up and not be able to sleep back..and it got worst when i knew my brain was still hyper but i could feel literally my body was abt to collapse already because i did not have enough rest. anyway, glad that i was sick ytd. why? cause i could took medicine that knocked me out.

mum is back from Colmar Tropicale. dad was really sweet. he went all the way to Malacca to fetch her cause he was worried she was alone taking a bus back and afraid she didnt know to go abt doing the whole thing. awwww. i hope they appreciate each other man.

been thinking alot my christian faith lately. probably too much. sometimes just like Corrine May's song... often i like to rub on a crystal ball or read astrology so i know the future.

curiousity kills the cat, i suppose.

Earth Day Tip #2 – Say no to plastic bags
Even though plastic bags do not pose a threat to the environment in Singapore, it is still wasteful to use plastic bags excessively. Singapore consumes 2.5 billion plastic bags a year, which is equivalent to 625 bags per person annually or 19 million kilogram of waste. While some plastic bags are re-used to bag our rubbish at home, some end up as litter. Plastic bag litter can suffocate marine life.
Do your part to say no to plastic bags
- Bring our own bag for all our shopping trips
- Do not use plastic carriers for your take away food if you don’t really need it

Courtesty of Motorola's daily announcement webpage.

2nd post for the day

..my experience with miah's family..
it was kinda nerve wrecking, i admit. i wasnt really expecting to meet all his family at one go. and of all occasions, his grandma's birthday. but i did anyway. though i came from a relatively big family, i still get the jitters of meeting someone else's family, esp if it was your boyfriend's. it was like everyone saw me, they smiled, all learnt i was a guitarist but unmistakably, all had that particular look - 'who are you?!' and so i tried hard to smile and conversed around. it wasnt all that bad.. for a start, so i thought.

it got embarrassing when the grandchildren had to give their presents to her. so came me. after miah jus briefly said i was his friend, i gave her those nurtrients for the eyesight(something like those essence of chicken kind-of-bottle) and she was like, 'who is this young lady???' yes, it was all over the poor old lady's face. but she was gracious enough to still flash me a wide smile and accept my gift. then she had a mini interogation with miah. (pls use your imagination if you can speak pure cantonese and mandarin)

grandma: "is she your friend?"
miah: "yeah.. she is.."
grandma: ""your girlfriend..???"
miah: "eh..(laughing awkardly)yeah. my girlfriend."
grandma: "so, if she is, shldnt she be calling me "grandma" too? (grinning away)"

talk abt instantaneous acceptance into the family. cost of her having this conversation in front of a few other relatives? PRICELESS. i was totally flushed.

i was next brought around to be introduced to other aunties..now tt was, bit funny though. i really had no time to think abt any conversation with them. so didnt reallt talk. i like one of them though. apparently, his family are super corny. at least 90% of them. fancy a family who talk corks all the time. i wonder if all my female married friends felt the way i did at that pt of time.

i realised my family are slightly quieter and more serious. seriously.

wow. what an experience from last week till now. demand upside.. was totally lost in how to settle my product.

finally, boss said, "good". all i need is jus simply one word for me, to just boost my morale for work.

i was feeling kinda down lately. felt demoralised somehow, as if i let my boss down or just such a disppointing worker at work. yeah, i know the excuse i could give myself is, 'im still on the learning curve'. but seriously, how long can i keep giving such remarks. thank God for such wonderful colleagues! love them, man.

tmr is my exposure report. this time around is easier. hopefully i dun get stress out or anything.

last sunday's sermon was good. 'Jesus loves me' was the theme. sometimes, it is nice to have reminders to remind ourselves how God takes good care of the excruxiating details of our lives but yet, often we complain about this and that. always not contented. worship session also was great. had positive feedbacks abt the band, GraceNotes. well done!!

thank you Jesus for being in my life. for blessing me all those ard me. i hope to be a better servant for You.

randoms.

MRP day. at least so far so good. no demand changes. but i hate tmr still. still adjusting to the new office sitting and environment. feels different. kinda quiet. i miss the old place.

been having such uneasiness within me recently. i have no idea why.

im so tired. still in the midst of recovering from cough and flu.

its not yet lunch and im starving. i need food.

finally i get to meet up with Jo tmr. haha.

i get to play on Sunday 11am again! yeah.

sat is miah's grandma birthday. darn. now i rem. i dun have a present. shucks. talk abt trying to get a good impression.

sometimes i feel pain and hurt when i had to react that way. sometimes i feel like i duno how else to encourage nor help. sometimes i feel lousy cause both parties are just simple stubborn. while im convincing the other, another feels like im the baddie. what's new.

often, im not fit with anyone at the rate i am going.
often, i feel not as virtous a woman should be.
often, im not the person who you think i am.
often, i set expectations for myself and find myself failing miserably.
often, i tried hard to change to have better confidence but land up hurting someone.
often, i told myself how pple thought of me but it seems circumstances have another way of saying it.

maybe i am just meant to be alone. im not that perfect person. i just die trying. pple say tt's the spirit. at least the process was fruitful. but i beg to differ. sometimes die-trying just really kills. maybe tt's why sometimes i wonder why i am even in this place with all these pple, when im just a baddie. it doesnt matter anyway. im convinced now. i was right from the beginning. i just not fit with anyone. i was just living in a lie.

guess living in a fairy tale sometimes doesnt hurt tt much. you just picture, picture and just picture. its not like you have to actualised it. oh well. i like the lyrics to "Dont write me off just yet" by Hugh Grant. neh, no ones will dedicate such a song to me.

i feeling damn lousy about work. seems often things are entasked to me, i just kinda either do really slow and really blur. like i just cant seem to ge the concept right.

then next thing i knew, the whole wide world comes mercilessly chasing me for the answers.

family domestic problem is always a chore.

qn: what's does God say about the letter you read? What is the truth? what will Jesus do?

ans: i have no idea. completely no idea.